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scared

2011-11-27T01:25:00.001+08:00

im scared. I feel like we r no long couple. I feel like I don't know u anymore. what we talk aren't as deep as a friend. I really feel like we r playing hide and seek. but both r talking the hiding role. this game will either end soon or it will nvr end but living like 2 strangers.

I rather to hv conflict then not talking n pretend everything is going. but at the end, everything is just ended.

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Understanding

2011-11-27T00:30:00.003+08:00

it has been a long long time since i came here n write a post. Today, I had an awesome day. Helping fds to move houses, great dinner, had a great chat (almost). But as we continue to talk, we reached until point where we held 2 different ideas. when both of us think wt we were saying is rite and dun wanna give in, this is where the great chat became an almost great chat.

as usual, once we chatted until point where we hold different ideas/opinion and we both think we have nth wrong, then it is where the problem is. He will always say "it is my fault sorry". But this will nvr b the reply or response that i want. Because i know deep down in him, he doesnt think that way. He just doesnt want to continue to talk or he thinks we will nvr understand each other. And every time, we would end with awkwardness and sadness. like be4, tears fall, heart sinks, silent me. We will nvr come to a conclusion. We will nvr understand each other. We will nvr have conflicts because we will nvr talk. We will always stop at the point, and avoid the topic, in order not to have that conversation, and we would think that this topic is all settled, nth wrong, we are still a happy couple without argument/disagreement.

This really makes me think are we really a pair of good couple. Is our relationship really deep and solid? We are not as happy/match as people from the outside c.

I have no one to turn to. Not my fds, not my family, not my bf.

However, I know GOD is always there. He sees my tears. He hears my cry. He understands my pain and sadness. HE is here for me. HE is the only one who can understand me.

mind game

2010-09-27T01:02:00.002+08:00

devil always play with our mind game.

No matter how strong you are physically, but once your mind is being played by the devil, you will for sure become weak.

I know this!! And I know this all the time!!! I hate being played by devil. But I always fall into this trap!!!! I hate it so much!!!!!!!!

BUT

NOW I know, if I fall again, I will plant GOD's words into my mind. I will use the sword of GOD's words to fight against it!!!

And I know I WILL ALWAYS WIN, if I am WITH HIM!!!!

what is patient??

2010-08-16T23:05:00.002+08:00

do you have any experience of teaching someone, but they just never listen to you and keep doing the same mistake again and again???Have you ever had an experience that you know that is wrong, but your friend or someone that you know kept doing it??

I had that before. And I believe that almost everyone should have that experience before.It is just so frustrating!!! You may try to tell him..once...twice....three time.....but thats it!!!!!

But GOD is perfect in "patient". When i did wrong for the first time, he taught me and forgave me. the second time, he reminded me, and forgave me. third time, reminded me and forgave me again. And again and again. HE just teaches and reminds me again and again.

What a wonderful and awesome GOD!!!

who is here for me?

2010-07-31T22:34:00.002+08:00

i haven't been posting blog for so long. recently, i felt so lonely.
no matter i am with friends or boyfriends. It once made me emo.

BUT, why do i need to feel lonely, since i know my
is everywhere and with me all the time.

"That night the LORD appeared to him and said,
"I am the God of your father Abraham. Do not be afraid, for I am with you"
Gen 26:24

love is....

2010-07-07T11:08:00.002+08:00

What is LOVE?

Before today, i thought i am a person who know how to love a person. Be nice, be kind, be patient, be encouraging, be cheerful, be friendly.

But what is LOVE?? I got a note book from my boyfriend. And the cover of it is with a bible verse. It teaches me how to LOVE and what is LOVE.

"Love is patient Love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast. It is not proud. It is not rude. It is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

This is one of the most famous quote for a christian and a non-christian. It tells us what is love.

For me, I think i am patient, i am kind. But when i read this verse over and over again, I know Love is not just that. Love needs more!! It is hard for me. But it is the true LOVE.

I encourage you to practice this LOVE. It is hard, but with GOD's strength and help, nothing is impossible. LOVE without easily angered, LOVE without keeping the records of wrong, LOVE without envy, LOVE with lot of TRUST!!!

eyelashes

2010-07-05T11:42:00.002+08:00

~Story time~

At a sandy day, eyes and hand had a conversation.

hand was blocking some sands flying into the eyes.

Eyes: thanks hand, if without you, i think i will be filled with sands. it will hurt me alot and i may even get infected. thanks so much.

Hand: You're welcome!! But i think you should say thanks to eyelashes, because they are the one who protect you 24/7. They are the one who trap most of the sand and dust. They are the one protect you, so that you can see the beautiful view of this world.

In our life, we always forget people that close to us the most. We are just like the eyes, we can see everything except the eyelashes. We saw the green and tall mountain, we saw the beautiful calm sea, we saw the pretty girl and guy on the other side of the river, but we couldn't see the long and beautiful eyelashes right in front of your eyes.

I have to say that, I always take my family for granted. I know that they will be there no matter how, so i will just ignore them. Put my friends, the things that i like in front of them.

When was the last time you talk to them? When was the last time you say I LOVE YOU to your parent? When was the last time you turn to them and share your sadness and happiness? When was the last time you think of them?

It is because they are always here, you will focus on the things that you have to chase after, the things that you haven't gotten in your hands. Just now i was reading bible, Solomon builds the temple for GOD. Inside it said Solomon employed people to build the temple, but he set the rules that everyone work for 1 month then 2 months rest, so that they can enjoy the time with their family.

We always focus on our work and forget our family, the always support. I think it is a time for us to show love to them.

I will txt my mum n say i love you.

This is my challenge to you. Just go n txt your parent a "I Love You" without a request or a reason. Have a look of your eyelashes!!

focus~~

2010-07-03T01:34:00.003+08:00

sometime have you ever felt that you got distracted by something while you actually wanna do another thing?

I have that all the time. But recently, this feeling strutted me a lot. I have been trying to do something, but then because i kept focusing on the by-product, and totally forgotten and ignored about the main thing, the real big thing.

E.G. you wanna study for your exam, so you were thinking it would be good if you have a nice and tidy desk. Therefore, you spent an hour on tidying the table, and then another hour, then another hour and at the end, you spent the whole day on tidying the table, and didn't study for the exam at all.

I am not saying we shouldn't tidy our table to improve the efficiency, but don't forget the main purpose of tidying the table. It is to study for the exam.

Sometime we just spend too much time on the details and minor thing. And we will forget about the main, big deal.

It is very important for you to remember that the goal and aim all the time. We should remind ourselves about the main purpose. To see whether the action that you are doing is it beneficial to the main purpose. To see whether the action is it necessary.

For instance, we can tidy the table for exam. For sure it is better for us to study. BUT, is it necessary to spend the whole day on it? or it can be done by 1 or 2 hours??

In our life, we may have a mission, have a calling, have a job to do. But because of the minor things, because of the small little thing, we got distracted.

For me, my job is to build a generation, for me, my job is to invest in people's life, no matter is teen, old people, or kids(lol..i prefer to invest on kids). anyway, that's not the point. BUT my main goal in life is to grow in GOD, to study his words, to be the salt. If I don't read his words, how am I gonna know/do what pleased him??

Sometime, we will forget about studying his words but we go fellowship, we bond with the people. I am not saying shouldn't go out with friends. But what I am saying here is that shouldn't affect you to read HIS words, that shouldn't affect you to grow in HIM.

Don't Let The Small Little Things Distract You. Focus On The Big Deal In Your Life.

feel disappointed because of her?

2010-06-24T13:36:00.003+08:00

do u ever feel disappointed because u keep telling your fd no, but she/he insist to do that??

u kno the bad consequences of that thing. u kno the bad influences that he/she may get from that thing. But no matter how hard you tell them, no matter how many times you try to confront them. They will just ignore you, or sometime, your relationship will become worse?

If you have ever experienced that, you know how sad, how disappointing, how heart-broken it is.

BUT

Our job is to confront with love; our job is to tell them thats bad, thats not beneficial. This is all we can do.

The part of transforming other's heart, the part where someone's life is changed, is totally belong to GOD. He will touch their heart in his own way.

DON'T think that, no matter what you do, it wont make a change. Thats totally wrong. It is because GOD will use you, will use your confront, your mouth to transform someone's life, or just by your little action.

SO, pls. don't be sad or disappointed because they didn't listen you. And DON'T be angry with GOD, why he hasn't change their life. HE has his own timing, and you will never know.

what we can do now, is really pray for that person, pray for open heart, pray for open ear. So when u confront them, GOD will work through your words and you to change their life!!

REMEMBER: our job is to tell the truth, GOD's job is to transform someone's heart and life.

emo neh~~

2010-06-20T18:17:00.002+08:00

A lot of problems around me, problems started since yesterday nite. Then they came into my life again this morning. It was a nightmare, drove me crazy!Took my patience.

Then I hurt my toe when i was playing with the kids. Then kids sat on my legs while we were watching movie. My legs went numb. And my toe is still in pain.

When i came home, I forgot to bring my bean bag down. Then i really miss my boyfriend. I want him to be with me now.

BUT!!

I am not here to post my emo blogs again!!!!

A lot of problems around me since last nite till this morning, but because of these problems, i know how hard it is, and I can be more understanding. Also. because of these problems, i learnt to be more flexible and patience is trained.

Then i went to church, my toe hurts, but i learnt that, I should be more careful next time. And it taught me that, it is dangerous to run around in the room, and I should pay more attention on the kids while they are running.

The kids sat on my legs while we were watching movie. Even though it makes my legs went numb, I felt the bonding and the trust between me and the kids. It motivates me so much!!

Then for forgetting to take my bean bag, that just taught me to be more careful.

I really miss my boyfriend, but I know GOD is here for me, his presence is here for me. Megatron is here with me. My friends are in perth for me. I know my boyfriend is coming back soon. And I believed he did buy my stuffs.

So I AM HAPPY NOW^^

Choose Joy, It Can Make A Difference!!!

Loved~~~

2010-06-16T16:35:00.002+08:00

Yesterday nite, my fds came to my temporary house!!felt so warm and loved!!just like a family. even tho we didnt do much, jsut guitar pract. n tv n a bit of ice cream time..

they came to my house, because they wanted accompany me while im home-alone. thx^^

then they came here n slept over, n this morning, they woke up super early to fetch me to uni and waited me for 2 hrs for my exam. then they fetch me home n buy food and buy some stuffs for tonite...

thanks so much my friends.

feel so much love!!!!

God put people in your life, because of you. You may think they are a problem to you(im not saying you guys are my problems), but look through your past, most of the happy , joyful time are with your friends; look again, most of your emo time, your friends are here for you; look the last time, most of your hard time, study time, your friends are next to you, studying with you, supporting you.

God put you in people's life, are the same, want you to be their support, their comfort, their sharing partner, their encourager.

GOD put you in this world with a reason. To be a solution for a problem, to be someone's friend, to show LOVE and CARE....

GO BE ONE!!!!!

MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!

2010-06-16T12:03:00.002+08:00

We always think "who are we?", "what are we?"...

but we are not NOBODY!!!

but we are SOMEBODY!!!

mt fds always tell me "GOD did DIE for NOBODY!!!he sent HIS ONLY SON to die for you!!YOU ARE SOMEBODY!!!!"

WE are SOMEBODY!!

WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!!!!

see this VIDEO!!!!

these are my fd...they are just like us...and they can make a difference...

you may not see the difference right away....

but you sow a seed in people's heart!!!!

GO MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!!!
GO MAKE A DIFFERENCE FOR GOD!!!

easy dummy

2010-06-15T22:35:00.002+08:00

there is a chinese saying "there is no free lunch". it means that you have to pay for everything. you wont have a HD for your exam, if you dun study. you wont be able to have an awesome high paid job, if you dun study hard.

sometime evil things are much more easier to achieve. like being a jerk to cut in line for buying stuffs...u dun hv to think, just do. I was studying Psy, you have the id naturally. the ID is the evil side, then u will hv ur superego, which is the right thing, like the social value. You now are fighting with ID and SUPEREGO, an ego is produced. You have to fight the ID to to do a right thing.

In bible, it also said that, we dun have to think about doing the evil stuffs.

Lets try to think more!! Put just a bit of the effort on thinking to do the right stuffs. Think about the consequences before you do!

Think!!!!Think!!!!Think!!!

We are the world 25 lyrics

2010-06-15T15:33:00.000+08:00

[Justin Bieber]
There comes a time
When we heed a certain call
[Nicole Scherzinger & Jennifer Hudson]
When the world must come together as one
[Jennifer Hudson]
There are people dying
[Jennifer Nettles]
And it’s time to lend a hand to life
The greatest gift of all
[Josh Groban]
We can’t go on
Pretending day by day
[Tony Bennet]
that someone, somehow will soon make a change
[Mary J Blige]
We are all a part of
God’s great big family
And the truth, you know love is all we need
[Chorus]
[Michael Jackson]
We are the world
We are the children
[Michael Jackson and Janet Jackson]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Barbra Streisand]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Miley Cyrus]
Send them your heart
So they’ll know that someone cares
[Enrique Iglesias]
so their cries for help
will not be in vain
[Nicole Scherzinger]
We can’t let them suffer
no we cannot turn away
[Jamie Foxx]
Right now they need a helping hand
[Wyclef Jean]
Nou se mond la
We are the Children
[Adam Levine]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
so lets start giving
[Pink]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
[BeBe Winans]
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Michael Jackson]
When you’re down and out
There seems no hope at all
[Usher]
But if you just believe
There’s no way we can fall
[Celine Dion]
Well, well, well, well, let us realize
That a change can only come
[Fergie]
When we stand together as one
[Chorus - All]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Nick Jonas]
Got to start giving
[All]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
[Toni Braxton]
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Mary Mary]
We are the world
We are the children
[Tony Bennet]
Its for the children
[Isaac Slade]
We are the ones who make a brighter day
[Toni Braxton]
So lets start giving
[Lil Wayne]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Chorus - All]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Akon]
There’s a choice we’re making
We’re saving our own lives
It’s true we make a better day
Just you and me
[T-Pain]
We are the world
We are the children
We are the ones who make a brighter day
So let’s start giving
[Jamie Foxx imitating Ray Charles]
Choice were making
saving our own lives
It’s true we’ll make a better day
Just you and me
[Rapping - LL Cool J, Will-I-Am, Snoop Dogg, Busta Rhymes, Swizz Beatz]
We all need somebody that we can lean on
when you wake up look around and see that your dreams gone
when the earth quakes we’ll help you make it through the storm
when the floor breaks a magic carpet to stand on
we are the World united by love so strong
when the radio isn’t on you can hear the songs
a guided light on the dark road your walking on
a sign post to find the dreams you thought was gone
someone to help you move the obstacles you stumbled on
someone to help you rebuild after the rubble’s gone
we are the World connected by a common bond
Love the whole planet sing it along
[Wyclef]
CABARETT
[Chorus - All]
[Kanye West]
Everyday citizens
everybody pitching in
[Singing - Children & Wyclef Jean]
Nou se mond la
nou se timoun yo
[Will-I-Am]
You and I
You and I
[Kanye West]
Uh, 12 days no water
whats your will to live?
[Will-I-Am]
we amplified the love we watching multiply
[Kanye West]
Feeling like the Worlds end
we can make the World win
[Will-I-Am]
Like Katrina, Africa, Indonesia
and now Haiti needs us, the need us, they need us
[Chorus - All]
[Wyclef Jean]
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
Ayiti, Ayiti, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay, Ay
lyrics courtesy of www.killerhiphop.com
[End]
adopted from http://www.killerhiphop.com/we-are-the-world-25-for-haiti-lyrics/ (2010)

sleep

2010-06-15T12:33:00.002+08:00

sleep??

nah...today i am not talking about sleeping. but SLEEP.

Sleep is the hard bit thats around your eyes

after you wake up. A.k.a. eye booger.

when you wake up, you will feel it,

but if you ignore it, as time goes by,

5 mins later you won't be able to feel it,

and you may just forget about it.

It makes you look ugly in other's eye,

other people can well noticed.

until you go washroom to wash it away,

or you take the action to remove it from your eyes.

i think it is same as pride in our life.

if we put ourselves too high; if we are too self centered;

if we think the world rotate around you,

that makes you really ugly.

you may think "Ugly?No!!!!! I don't think so."

but it is ugly in others eyes. it is ugly in GOD's eyes.

All the things that you do, will give out the trace of pride.

You will look down on people;

you will think that everyone in the world is just loser,

except you. these traces, everyone can obviously see,

but except you. Just like sleep, everyone can see,

but it is too close to you, and you have ignored its exist,

and now, it becomes part of you.

It will be there forever, if you don't take the action to remove it!!

It will give an ugly image of you to everyone,

if you don't wash it away. I

t will make you and the other people feel uncomfortable,

if you don't rub it off.

Yesterday night, i was reading the bible.

Inside it said "Pride goes before destruction"(Proverb 16:18).

When I first read that,

i was like "well...i don't think i have any problems in pride area.

but i think i need to tell the others,

coz they all hv" but until i am writing this post,

i think if i have that thought, I am prideful.

It takes times and effort to correct that.

Even though you have correct that or noticed that,

it doesn't mean it won't come back! So for me,

my plan is try my best to correct it,

and at the same time ask GOD's help. Ask him to train me,

to help me and remind me all the time.

Hope you guys will reflect and notice the pride,

and really take action towards that problem!!!

Face it and Chase this LION away~~

Lion Meow~~~

2010-06-13T12:32:00.003+08:00

"The path to your greatest potential is often strengthen through your greatest fear."

everyone has their own lion has to faced. This lion is our fear. I have mine as well. My lion is trusting people. I think this is a common fear that i think most of the people have it or at least once had it in their life. This fear is gender equal, so the no. of boy who has this fear is same as the no. of girl. For me, because of some past experience, i have trusting issue. i felt so hard to trust a person, but then i have to trust so struggle all the time.

But if we all stay in the fear, when we all ran away from the lion, we will never be able to achieve something big. The lion will make you become someone who can't do anything.

It is time for us to step out of ourselves, and chase after the lion. Chased him out of your fear, make him become a little kitten instead a lion.

Have faith that you can do it. Have faith that GOD will help you go through the fear, chase the lion. Faith is not something that is risk-free.

When you were a baby, you couldn't walk, so you crawl on the floor. when your mum asked you to stand up and walk, you had FAITH in her that she is gonna hold you when you fall; you have faith that standing up and walking is not gonna harm you. If you didn't trust and have faith in you mum at that time, you will be still crawling on the floor, no matter you are 8, 28,38,68 years old.

Step up in FAITH, FACE your lion, LOOK at GOD, CHASE the lion away

NEW BLOG, NEW ME~~

2010-06-12T02:52:00.003+08:00

~story time~

Once upon a time,

my thought said "what if everyone blog about

their emo nemo days on 'the blog',

then 'the blog' will be super emo, and may have depression."

so i went to hv a look of random ppl's blog.

then i found out everyone's blogs are reali reali emo.

thought said "everyone also so emo,

how are they gonna leave their emo shell?

they will be even more emo."

~the end~

i am a person who is pretty emotional and

kinda negative on the inside, hapi hapi on the outside....

be4 this, my blog contained all my complains...

all my emo nemo stuffs....

so because of that thought (the story above),

i think i should change~~~

so one day when i look at one of my friend's blog,

he/she is trying to do a LOVE blog,

to post all the random kindness on the blog to share the love.

after i read the post, i was inspired by them,

so instead of doing another LOVE blog,

i chose to start a blog of encouragement.

Because GOD told us to be an encourager in the world.

Because GOD told us to show LOVE, both tough and lovely lovely LOVE.

so here i am.

My new blog...

i deleted everything that was here...

all those emo nemo stuffs...

n now i am gonna share all positive things HERE....

to be an encourager....

to show LOVE n care...

to show the lovely TRUTH....

to show tough LOVE^^

~a new blog, a new me~